Tuesday, December 3, 2013
My Thoughts On Greg Sestero's The Disaster Artist
For many years, Tommy Wiseau's cinematic masterpiece The Room has been the target of much awe from it's fans, even though it had been torpedoed by critics upon it's initial release. This was long before we discovered the charm hidden under the rubble. It is an example of film-making which has gone spectacularly wrong. Only the most rudimentary elements survive the continuum of the plot; Johnny loves Lisa. Lisa betrays Johnny. Mark is Johnny's best friend. Mark also betrays Johnny. Everybody betrays Johnny. The movie is terrible.
Yes, the movie is terrible. But part of what keeps people coming to theaters around the world is the mysterious, enigmatic director. Nobody knows where Tommy Wiseau came from. His accent sounds like an awkward mixture of French and Eastern European. Yet he's often claimed publicly that he was from New Orleans. Fans have long since called bullshit on that, though it delights us to no end when he repeatedly makes the claim. Even though it's largely unknown, somehow, he managed to conquer the American dream and rise from abject obscurity to make the most notoriously bad film of all time. Yes, it's bad. But it is the biggest cult hit on the scene since the release of The Rocky Horror Picture Show.
You may love the film, as I do. Or you may hate the film with a vengeance comparable to the furnaces of Hell. You would be perfectly within your right. One thing you can not say about The Room, however, is that it's forgettable. It is not forgettable. Stephen Soderberg's Haywire is forgettable. (Only two months after having seen it, my friend Ben had to explain the entire plot of the story before I was able to vaguely locate it in the recesses of my memory.) Tommy Wiseau's The Room certainly isn't.
In fact, much like my grandparents recall the assassination of John F. Kennedy, much like my mom recalls the 1986 Space Shuttle Challenger disaster, and much like how I remember the awful events of September Eleventh, 2001, I remember exactly where I was and what I was doing the first time I saw the trailer for Tommy Wiseau's magnum opus. I'm sure many other long-time fans can offer up a similar memory. I was in my old house in Beaverton, minding my own business. It was a slow evening, replete with facebook activities. Suddenly, I see the messages icon go red, with notifications. They were adding up incredibly fast. Puzzled, I clicked on the icon, and saw my friend and comrade in arms Ben Eastman was sending me a slough of messages. I don't recall them exactly, but it was something like "Have you watched the link I sent you?" "You need to watch it." "Watch it RIGHT NOW." "NOW!" "DO IT!" Okay, Ben. Cool your jets.
I scrolled up through the twenty or so messages that Ben had just sent me in a matter of ten seconds, and found the link, and I clicked on it. THIS is what I saw. As my mouth was hanging open from disbelief, the only thought I could find in my head was "I have to see this film."
And I did. I couldn't stand it the first time. But it slowly grew on me. I've had the honor Tommy Wiseau three times (I am actually meeting him again in a few days when he returns to Portland) I met Greg Sestero once. But recently, he came out with a book that adequately explains the question that has haunted fans like myself for many years. "What in the hell happened?"
As a filmmaker myself, the book is an exercise in absolute terror.Tommy makes every decision in a disastrously wrong way and needlessly alienates his entire crew. Though even with the terror, I have never read a book which made me laugh more. I've rarely read a book as touching as The Disaster Artist. Yes, it's blunt. It's harsh in it's criticisms of Tommy Wiseau. It mocks him, and repeatedly points out his inadequacies with relish. However, much to my astonishment, even with all of the anecdotes that reflect very poorly on Tommy, it also manages to be a totally loving tribute to a man who has somehow captured the imagination of millions with a complete disaster of a movie.
Another remarkable feat of the book is it sheds light on many of the mysteries that have surrounded the film since it came out. It answered many of the questions I had, and vanquished much of the mystery. Yet it somehow only enhances the experience of The Room. There is no diminishing of the experience even with the book's revelations. It's not a cheap, dubious celebrity tell-all. It's a truly wonderful book, sure to lift your spirits.
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Tribute To A King- Eight Years Later
Eight years ago today, April, 17th 2005, was one of the worst days of my life. I didn't know it at the time, but I would find out the very next day. It would be one of the most emotionally devastating moments I would ever experience. And there is little doubt that it changed my life forever.
When you are a kid , and you leave behind your home and everything you've ever known, it can be a very intimidating experience.It is true that the Beaverton/Hillsboro area is only about fifty miles north of Keizer, where I had lived and gone to school before. However, when you’re twelve years old, fifty miles might as well be five hundred. I only moved once as a kid, but I remember arriving in the new town, and what it felt like to be a stranger in the midst of other kids who seemed to have established connections already. When you are a stranger in a strange land, and you’re shy by nature,it is your prayer that somebody in the faceless crowd of people will step forward to hold out the olive branch of friendship. As it turned out, Joe was that person for me.
It was at Brown Middle School during the first week of seventh grade in 2002. I was at my locker getting something for a class, when this giant came up next to me. He was at least two inches taller than I was. That wasn’t something I was used to at the time. People always made comments to me about how tall I was, so to see someone who was even taller was a bit of a trip. He introduced himself, and said he had recognized me from thebus. I shook his hand, and he asked if I wanted to be his friend. I accepted.
Over the next two and a half years,there were many memories I had with Joe. I wish I could list them in order, but the passage of time has made that a very difficult thing to do. I remember one awkward situation, where I was in the most pathetic version of a Mexican standoff in history with some punk who lived in my neighborhood. It was a kid who went to school at the Beaverton District, (Joe and I were patrons of the Hillsboro school district and the center of my Neighborhood was the cut-offline) Joe and I had been hanging out that day, with me riding my bike, and Joe on foot. We were by the park in my old neighborhood. The kickstand on my bike kept coming loose and falling off,so I had to pick it up and carry it with my hands. I don’t know what his problem was, but for some reason, this little douche on the bicycle had a brick, and was threatening to hit me with it. I thought he was just screwing with me for his amusement,but I wasn’t totally sure, so I used the only object I had as a deterrent for him, and the only means I had to defend myself- my bicycle kickstand. I remember Joe was about five feet behind me,barely hiding his amusement at the spectacle. That kid and I were no more than ten feet away from each other. He kept brandishing the brick as if he planned to throw it,and I was, in self defense, doing the same with my kickstand. I was consciously aware at the time of how ridiculous I looked, but I sure wasn't going to take a brick in the face without trying to protect myself. For most of the time, Joe was just standing there, laughing his ass off at the pathetic display that was unraveling before him, until eventually he got tired of it. He had no brick, and he had no kickstand, but he just rushed the punk,and yelled “Get the fuck out of here!” and the little twerp dropped the brick and rode his bike in the opposite direction as fast as he could. He turned around, and I’ll never forget the look of absolute joy on his face- both in his achievement in getting the kid to leave, but also in the ridiculous stand-off he had witnessed. We shared a riotous laugh.
Then there was another time when I had planned on just hanging out, maybe we would play a game on his PlayStation 2, or ride our bikes. Joe had other things in mind. He wanted to swim in the inflatable pool in his back yard. I had no trunks with me, so I just removed my coat and shoes, and took out whatever I had in my pockets and climbed in wearing my usual clothing of Jeans and a T-shirt and socks. (Why not,right?) After getting used to the temperature, Joe characteristically decided to roughhouse. He came up to me, and started dunking me under the water over and over again. Joe was a really big guy, and it was difficult to over power him- then he pushed me under the water and held me there for a while. I tried to get to the surface, but he wouldn’t relent- I knew he was having a grand time. He finally let go when I reached up and started pushing down the edge of the pool as hard as I could, and water started spilling out. He didn’t want me flooding his backyard. When Joe heard his mom’s car pull into the driveway, he quickly ushered me away and told me togo home. Apparently he wasn’t supposed to have people over that day. (Sorry,Denise. I didn’t know.) I just remember walking home, and leaving a ridiculously huge trail of water behind me.
Joe and I would occasionally tease each other. I could not resist going for the obvious joke almost every time I saw him, and it pissed him off to no end. When I would see him, I’d walk up and always say “You must be Joking!” (Joe King), or some variation of it. When he didn’t get pissed by it, he would retort with “Hello, Geoff Mackey”, Mackey being the surname of my then-stepfather. It was one of those stupid inside jokes that only amused us.
During Eighth Grade, there was a contest during lunch. It was a game of Tug-of-war. This version of it was performed on the stage in the cafeteria, and it was a one on one match. When a person was toppled, there was a line who would try to beat the winner. Large buckets were turned upside down, and participants were to balance on them with their knees, while also trying to topple their opponent. Joe decided to participate, and I witnessed one of the most impressive reigning championships I can remember. He kept grinning as he toppled student after student, teacher after teacher in quick succession. He was a thirteen year old kid toppling his peers and elders as easily as they were dominos. Joe was undefeated. Well,almost. At the very end of the match, the school custodian, Wally Lira, a very big man who I thought looked like Morpheus from The Matrix decided to take on Mister King. When their match started, I could see Joe was straining to hold onto the rope, even as his bucket was shifting under the pressure. Two titans of Tug-of-war were in an ultimate showdown. And after a minute, Joe’s bucket gave way, and he was on the floor. He was smiling and laughing.
I remember in high school, he was clearly getting bored in class. And he started bucking his desk backwards,while neighing like a horse. The front two legs lifted off of the ground. I found it hilarious but the teacher did not. After he did it several times, and after the teacher warned him many times, he finally stopped, and turned to me, with an excited look on his face. “Hey Geoff, do you know I can make battery bombs?” He took two double-A batteries and spent the rest of class rubbing them together, and under his desk, trying to turn them into “bombs”. Honestly, there was never a dull moment with that guy. That was one of my last memories of seeing him before he died.
He had moved away to Deer Island three months prior. He had been in a fight at school, and I think he had been expelled. He had a track record for getting into fights. Joe was a great friend to have, but he wasn't perfect. He had a bit of a temper. When we would walk home from school, one of his favorite things to do was punch the mail boxes we passed on the street. I remember stretches in middle school where I wouldn't see him at school for weeks at a time. I'd spend time wondering what could have happened, and when he came back to school, he let me know he had been in a fight. His fighting extended into Freshman year of high school, and before long, Century sent him packing.
He found new stomping grounds in Deer Island, Oregon, and attended school at St. Helens High. One evening, when I was busy working on homework, the phone rang.It was Joe. Mom told me to try to keep it short, because I needed to finish my assignments. Joe and I spoke for ten minutes or so. I asked him how he was doing, and he said he was doing great. He told me how much better he thought St. Helens High School was than Century. For one thing, Unlike Century, St .Helens had an open campus. If he wanted to, he could go to Taco Bell for lunch.He wasn’t just confined to cafeteria food like he was at Century. In his opinion, the girls were “much hotter” than those at Century, and he said he thought most of the girls were even hotter than the girl who had been the target of his affections for a few years. He loved how polite everyone was at his new school, and he said he would be happier going to school there. Mom came into the room, and told me to wrap up my conversation. I told Joe I had to leave, and he gave me his Deer Island phone number. He suggested I visit him sometime, and I told him I would talk to him again soon. Unfortunately, neither event ever took place.
Just less than a week after our final conversation, on April 17th, 2005 Joe and his family agreed to help some of their friends in Deer Island move. They piled into a white 1985 Subaru station wagon and hit the road. Unfortunately, one of these roads was long and very curvy in a heavily wooded area. To make matters worse, there was a torrential downpour that day. To my knowledge, I have never met or spoken to any of the survivors of the accident, but I remember hearing the details on the news.Canaan road, is a road in a very forested area of Deer Island. There are many curves on that road, and unfortunately, the geography of the area is such that installing guard rails would be a very difficult task. In several areas, the road runs parallel to very steep forest embankments that go fifty to a hundred feet down, with only tall, thick pine trees to break the void. As the driver brought the car toward that fateful curve of Canaan Road, it must have hydroplaned. As the car approached the edge of the embankment, he tried to turn the steering wheel in vain. The car would not turn. The brakes were totally useless. Nothing the driver tried worked, and as the Subaru went over the edge of the road, all four wheels left the ground. The car was flying through the air. I have no idea how this happened, Joe must not have been wearing his seat-belt but somehow,mid-flight, his body came between the top of the seats of the car, and the ceiling, right before the car struck a tree, and ricocheted sending the car flying once more- top first- into another tree. Everybody in the car was safe- except for, and because of one person.
Joe was sandwiched between the ceiling of the car, and the top of the seats. When the car struck the second tree, the roof caved in on top of Joe’s body. His body provided enough cover to protect everyone else from the crushing force of the roof. He continued breathing for several minutes. His father must have been nearby, because he made it to the crash site, and down to where Joe was. I am not sure, but I think he was conscious at the time, but he had broken his neck, and he was unable to speak. I heard that Joe’s father told him how much he loved him. A few moments later, while in his father’s arms, Joe left us.
When you are a kid , and you leave behind your home and everything you've ever known, it can be a very intimidating experience.It is true that the Beaverton/Hillsboro area is only about fifty miles north of Keizer, where I had lived and gone to school before. However, when you’re twelve years old, fifty miles might as well be five hundred. I only moved once as a kid, but I remember arriving in the new town, and what it felt like to be a stranger in the midst of other kids who seemed to have established connections already. When you are a stranger in a strange land, and you’re shy by nature,it is your prayer that somebody in the faceless crowd of people will step forward to hold out the olive branch of friendship. As it turned out, Joe was that person for me.
It was at Brown Middle School during the first week of seventh grade in 2002. I was at my locker getting something for a class, when this giant came up next to me. He was at least two inches taller than I was. That wasn’t something I was used to at the time. People always made comments to me about how tall I was, so to see someone who was even taller was a bit of a trip. He introduced himself, and said he had recognized me from thebus. I shook his hand, and he asked if I wanted to be his friend. I accepted.
Over the next two and a half years,there were many memories I had with Joe. I wish I could list them in order, but the passage of time has made that a very difficult thing to do. I remember one awkward situation, where I was in the most pathetic version of a Mexican standoff in history with some punk who lived in my neighborhood. It was a kid who went to school at the Beaverton District, (Joe and I were patrons of the Hillsboro school district and the center of my Neighborhood was the cut-offline) Joe and I had been hanging out that day, with me riding my bike, and Joe on foot. We were by the park in my old neighborhood. The kickstand on my bike kept coming loose and falling off,so I had to pick it up and carry it with my hands. I don’t know what his problem was, but for some reason, this little douche on the bicycle had a brick, and was threatening to hit me with it. I thought he was just screwing with me for his amusement,but I wasn’t totally sure, so I used the only object I had as a deterrent for him, and the only means I had to defend myself- my bicycle kickstand. I remember Joe was about five feet behind me,barely hiding his amusement at the spectacle. That kid and I were no more than ten feet away from each other. He kept brandishing the brick as if he planned to throw it,and I was, in self defense, doing the same with my kickstand. I was consciously aware at the time of how ridiculous I looked, but I sure wasn't going to take a brick in the face without trying to protect myself. For most of the time, Joe was just standing there, laughing his ass off at the pathetic display that was unraveling before him, until eventually he got tired of it. He had no brick, and he had no kickstand, but he just rushed the punk,and yelled “Get the fuck out of here!” and the little twerp dropped the brick and rode his bike in the opposite direction as fast as he could. He turned around, and I’ll never forget the look of absolute joy on his face- both in his achievement in getting the kid to leave, but also in the ridiculous stand-off he had witnessed. We shared a riotous laugh.
Then there was another time when I had planned on just hanging out, maybe we would play a game on his PlayStation 2, or ride our bikes. Joe had other things in mind. He wanted to swim in the inflatable pool in his back yard. I had no trunks with me, so I just removed my coat and shoes, and took out whatever I had in my pockets and climbed in wearing my usual clothing of Jeans and a T-shirt and socks. (Why not,right?) After getting used to the temperature, Joe characteristically decided to roughhouse. He came up to me, and started dunking me under the water over and over again. Joe was a really big guy, and it was difficult to over power him- then he pushed me under the water and held me there for a while. I tried to get to the surface, but he wouldn’t relent- I knew he was having a grand time. He finally let go when I reached up and started pushing down the edge of the pool as hard as I could, and water started spilling out. He didn’t want me flooding his backyard. When Joe heard his mom’s car pull into the driveway, he quickly ushered me away and told me togo home. Apparently he wasn’t supposed to have people over that day. (Sorry,Denise. I didn’t know.) I just remember walking home, and leaving a ridiculously huge trail of water behind me.
Joe and I would occasionally tease each other. I could not resist going for the obvious joke almost every time I saw him, and it pissed him off to no end. When I would see him, I’d walk up and always say “You must be Joking!” (Joe King), or some variation of it. When he didn’t get pissed by it, he would retort with “Hello, Geoff Mackey”, Mackey being the surname of my then-stepfather. It was one of those stupid inside jokes that only amused us.
During Eighth Grade, there was a contest during lunch. It was a game of Tug-of-war. This version of it was performed on the stage in the cafeteria, and it was a one on one match. When a person was toppled, there was a line who would try to beat the winner. Large buckets were turned upside down, and participants were to balance on them with their knees, while also trying to topple their opponent. Joe decided to participate, and I witnessed one of the most impressive reigning championships I can remember. He kept grinning as he toppled student after student, teacher after teacher in quick succession. He was a thirteen year old kid toppling his peers and elders as easily as they were dominos. Joe was undefeated. Well,almost. At the very end of the match, the school custodian, Wally Lira, a very big man who I thought looked like Morpheus from The Matrix decided to take on Mister King. When their match started, I could see Joe was straining to hold onto the rope, even as his bucket was shifting under the pressure. Two titans of Tug-of-war were in an ultimate showdown. And after a minute, Joe’s bucket gave way, and he was on the floor. He was smiling and laughing.
I remember in high school, he was clearly getting bored in class. And he started bucking his desk backwards,while neighing like a horse. The front two legs lifted off of the ground. I found it hilarious but the teacher did not. After he did it several times, and after the teacher warned him many times, he finally stopped, and turned to me, with an excited look on his face. “Hey Geoff, do you know I can make battery bombs?” He took two double-A batteries and spent the rest of class rubbing them together, and under his desk, trying to turn them into “bombs”. Honestly, there was never a dull moment with that guy. That was one of my last memories of seeing him before he died.
He had moved away to Deer Island three months prior. He had been in a fight at school, and I think he had been expelled. He had a track record for getting into fights. Joe was a great friend to have, but he wasn't perfect. He had a bit of a temper. When we would walk home from school, one of his favorite things to do was punch the mail boxes we passed on the street. I remember stretches in middle school where I wouldn't see him at school for weeks at a time. I'd spend time wondering what could have happened, and when he came back to school, he let me know he had been in a fight. His fighting extended into Freshman year of high school, and before long, Century sent him packing.
He found new stomping grounds in Deer Island, Oregon, and attended school at St. Helens High. One evening, when I was busy working on homework, the phone rang.It was Joe. Mom told me to try to keep it short, because I needed to finish my assignments. Joe and I spoke for ten minutes or so. I asked him how he was doing, and he said he was doing great. He told me how much better he thought St. Helens High School was than Century. For one thing, Unlike Century, St .Helens had an open campus. If he wanted to, he could go to Taco Bell for lunch.He wasn’t just confined to cafeteria food like he was at Century. In his opinion, the girls were “much hotter” than those at Century, and he said he thought most of the girls were even hotter than the girl who had been the target of his affections for a few years. He loved how polite everyone was at his new school, and he said he would be happier going to school there. Mom came into the room, and told me to wrap up my conversation. I told Joe I had to leave, and he gave me his Deer Island phone number. He suggested I visit him sometime, and I told him I would talk to him again soon. Unfortunately, neither event ever took place.
Just less than a week after our final conversation, on April 17th, 2005 Joe and his family agreed to help some of their friends in Deer Island move. They piled into a white 1985 Subaru station wagon and hit the road. Unfortunately, one of these roads was long and very curvy in a heavily wooded area. To make matters worse, there was a torrential downpour that day. To my knowledge, I have never met or spoken to any of the survivors of the accident, but I remember hearing the details on the news.Canaan road, is a road in a very forested area of Deer Island. There are many curves on that road, and unfortunately, the geography of the area is such that installing guard rails would be a very difficult task. In several areas, the road runs parallel to very steep forest embankments that go fifty to a hundred feet down, with only tall, thick pine trees to break the void. As the driver brought the car toward that fateful curve of Canaan Road, it must have hydroplaned. As the car approached the edge of the embankment, he tried to turn the steering wheel in vain. The car would not turn. The brakes were totally useless. Nothing the driver tried worked, and as the Subaru went over the edge of the road, all four wheels left the ground. The car was flying through the air. I have no idea how this happened, Joe must not have been wearing his seat-belt but somehow,mid-flight, his body came between the top of the seats of the car, and the ceiling, right before the car struck a tree, and ricocheted sending the car flying once more- top first- into another tree. Everybody in the car was safe- except for, and because of one person.
Joe was sandwiched between the ceiling of the car, and the top of the seats. When the car struck the second tree, the roof caved in on top of Joe’s body. His body provided enough cover to protect everyone else from the crushing force of the roof. He continued breathing for several minutes. His father must have been nearby, because he made it to the crash site, and down to where Joe was. I am not sure, but I think he was conscious at the time, but he had broken his neck, and he was unable to speak. I heard that Joe’s father told him how much he loved him. A few moments later, while in his father’s arms, Joe left us.
The next day I was in Jag Read, it was 25 minutes out of the day where students would meet in a designated classroom and read books. It was abolished after my Freshman year. I was reading a book and half eavesdropping on a conversation one of the teachers was having with a student.Mostly, I was focused on the book I was reading. Then during the conversation,like a bolt from the blue, I heard the teacher casually ask a girl in my class, “Did you hear about Joe King? He was killed in a car accident this weekend.” I felt a sudden, unyielding freezing feeling run through my chest and into my extremities. The kind you get when particularly awful news comes to you. “Yeah,he died this weekend.” I was frozen. Absolutely stunned right there in the middle of class. I couldn't even move for a couple of minutes. When I was finally able to get up, I went over and asked the teacher if I could leave to get a drink of water. It was an excuse. Being the macho-man I am, I wasn’t going to ask if I could go outside to cry my eyes out. He said no. Absolutely upset, and kind of pissed at the rejection, I went back to my desk, The other teacher, the lady, spoke to him a sI was sitting down. The guy who had turned me down just seconds earlier, said “Actually,Geoff, why don’t you go get that drink?” The lady teacher gave me a kind smile.She had my back. I’ve always been grateful to her for that. The man, on the other hand, was an insensitive prick. You shouldn't have to overhear someone else's conversation to find out your best friend has died.
When I made it out to the hallway, and I saw nobody was around, I lost my composure for a few minutes. I leaned against the wall to catch my breath. When I finally gathered enough strength, I went to the front office of Century, and called my mom to pick me up. She came and took me home.
Even though Joe had been gone from Century for over three months, news of his death spread through the school like wildfire. I did not want to go back under the circumstances; I just wanted to stay home.But I also realized I was still alive, and I could not stop living just because Joe had. People knew of my friendship with Joe, and because he was such a hot topic at school, they decided to ask me a whole bunch of questions about him. I didn’t mind answering them, it actually helped with my grief and anger, though I did get annoyed at the ridiculous questions. “Did Joe die a virgn?” I don't know. He was fourteen years old. What do you think? “Do you think your last phone call with Joe was his way of saying goodbye to you?” Are you actually asking me if I think Joe knew he was going to die? I sincerely doubt it. We made vague plans to hang out again in the future.Despite the idiots who asked those questions, most of them were nice to answer,and the temporary school-wide obsession with him was surprisingly very helpful to me in dealing with the loss.
I never had the impression that Joe was a particularly popular kid, but I remember being touched by how many people showed up to his funeral service. The auditorium at St. Helens High was pretty full. On stage, there was his casket, and just across from it there rested a giant throne, clearly symbolic of his last name. In the throne, there were a few of his belongings. That day, I didn’t have it in me to go up and speak for him, (Today was the first time in eight years that I have said anything publicly about him) but everyone who did speak said glowingly nice things about him. The most beautiful part of the day, in my opinion, was when all of the guests, one by one, came forward, and laid red roses on his coffin lid. When everybody returned to their seats, the view was beautiful. The sad wooden box on stage was transformed into a gorgeous hill of roses, illuminated just perfectly by the state lights so the red rose mountain appeared to be glowing. When everyone else was in the main hallway outside of the auditorium, I returned one last time. The coffin was closed, but I touched it one last time to say goodbye to my friend.
EPILOUGE- When Joe died, he saved four lives. Had he remained in his seat when the car went over the ravine, I have no doubt he would have died anyway, but under those circumstances, the others would have gone as well. Despite my own obvious reasons for wishing he had stayed home that day, I know his presence is the only thing that kept his co-passengers alive. Even though his death at age fourteen was a senseless tragedy, I take comfort in the fact he didn't die in vain. Whether by his own intention, or if he got the short straw of fate,he saved the lives of four others including a seven year old, and Joe died a heroic death. I miss him terribly.
Monday, April 1, 2013
Juice Fast A.K.A System Detoxification- Day One
10:58 AM- I am now at 13 hours without any tangible food. I've made several juices on the Jack LeLane signature juicer mom bought a few days ago. Right now, the concoctions are purely experimental. The goal of this exercise is weight loss, but also a detoxification of the body. Other people call it a "cleanse" which is what it is. But I prefer to call it detoxing. I'd rather sound like a recovering drug addict than an elderly woman who learned something fascinating by watching Oprah. Usually my daily diet consists of tons of meat (Which I love) carbs, water, milk, soda and maybe one vegetable or fruit. Much of what I eat is heavily processed, and allegedly has toxins. This is a chance to do a "reboot" of my system. Inspiration came in the from of a movie I saw. I haven't fasted before, so this will be an interesting experience. Apparently this is going to make me really sick for a couple of days. I sure hope not. I have plans. Right now, I am just trying to ease into the experience and make it as pleasant as possible for me. The good thing about this is I'm not doing it alone. My mother and her friend are doing it as well. Being without meat for several days will be really tough. Meat always makes me feel better. It will be pure misery. Hopefully it will be worth it.
Saturday, December 15, 2012
Sandy Hook. and Clackamas Town Center.
Like everyone else, I am absolutely shocked, saddened and outraged at the senseless violence that took place yesterday in Newtown, Connecticut. Some sick bastard forced his way into a school and murdered several children and teachers. In my home state of Oregon, at the time of the Newtown shooting, we were still mourning the shooting at Clackamas town Center, one of our malls. 2 people and the shooter were killed and one was injured. We were shocked enough by that, but only a few days later, Newtown happened. In Connecticut the death toll is devastating. It is the second worst school shooting in American History, second only to the 2007 attack on Virginia Tech. Many people have blamed guns for these tragedies. I refuse to join that bandwagon, because I know what the real issue is, just as I did nearly five months ago when the shootings in Aurora, Colorado happened. At the time, in my previous blog "Rotten Slice Of Americana" I pointed a finger directly at the only other people responsible for these shootings, other than the murderers themselves. The media. At the time, I predicted we would soon see other tragedies of this type, because of how the media covered the shootings in Colorado. Sadly, I was right.
There was a time in our history, when journalists were concerned with being the watchdogs of democracy, as was the intention behind "free journalism." Instead they are enablers of murderers and maniacs who seem feast on the blood of dead children. "If it bleeds, it leads." has long since been the unofficial credo of many ambulance chasing reporters, and what has come of it? A culture where the media, in it's pursuit of some kind of bullshit award in journalism, turns murderers into heroes, and turns sad loners into psychotic assholes who want to become the next monster in our nation's closet. Columbine is considered the first "big one" as far as this current trend of shootings go. But they were inspired by the shootings like the one here in Oregon at Thurston High. Why? Because of the mammoth size of the media coverage. It is not enough to simply announce what happened. They have to try to get in as many angles as possible for their big story. (In the Clackamas shooting, they even interviewed Santa Claus.) People who choose to take out 15- 30 people are assured to be celebrities now, and that will inspire pathetic sickos to form a fan club to honor them. Many of these murders are committed in a quest for notoriety. Why indulge them, media? You are fueling the fire.I hope you're happy. You've created a culture of blood-thirstiness. If you could tell the story without making the shooters anti-heroic figures, we would see tragedies like this wind down, but you refuse to report in moderation. You pulled the trigger on all of those poor children with your coverage in July. And when the next shooting happens, (which it undoubtedly will) it will be because of the trigger pulling you are doing now. As I said before, the cycle of death rages on.
Lets reset the clock. We are now zero days without a media inspired shooting. (A shooting in Alabama happened today by the way. No casualties, besides the shooter. Just three wounded. Not many people died, so you may not have heard about it. They get their meal ticket when people die.)
Final note- this is not an indictment of all journalists. Several of my friends have gone into Journalism, and there have been some who have chosen to take a moral high ground. This is more directed at the general trend of journalistic sensationalism in the face of tragedy. If any of my journalist friends read this- I have faith in you and your integrity. I know you'll bring dignity back to media.
Final note- this is not an indictment of all journalists. Several of my friends have gone into Journalism, and there have been some who have chosen to take a moral high ground. This is more directed at the general trend of journalistic sensationalism in the face of tragedy. If any of my journalist friends read this- I have faith in you and your integrity. I know you'll bring dignity back to media.
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Rotten Slice Of Americana- My Thoughts On The Recent Aurora Theater Shooting. More to come.
The problem isn't so much the guns. The problem is the attention these maniacs get. They become a dark folk figure. Call them a rotten slice of Americana. To some deeply twisted individuals, they become folk heroes and role models. Some people try to emulate or imitate these "folk heroes". The Virginia Tech killer, and countless other would be mass murderers have offered the names of the Columbine killers as inspiration.
Why are these people heroes to others/why do people continue the thread of violence? Two reasons: 1. Because these people are deeply disturbed individuals to begin with. 2. Because of the attention they get from the media. These people are generally loners. They feel disenfranchised, or abandoned and they think the only way to get attention is by doing something violent and drastic. They love leaving all of these things behind for people to talk about and analyze. They love being a puzzle for others to discuss and solve. They love having their ugly mugs plastered all over the news and internet. When some other depressed, psycho loner sees the legacy built up by somebody else's sins against humanity, they decide they want a piece of the action as well. They want to build their own legacy. The Columbine kids looked to Thurston High and Paduca for their inspiration, and in turn others have looked to them.
It is a viscous cycle that has caught way too many lives in it's teeth. Is this about guns? Hardly. It is about twisted hero worship. And it needs to come to an end now. The media should keep coverage of the Aurora shooter to a minimum. They should cease referring to him altogether. Keep cameras out of his face, because with every click of the camera, you are feeding the beast. Do not give this sicko what he wants. Let him rot in obscurity. If you take away the notoriety, you will take away the motivation to kill from other glory seekers, and many, many lives will be saved. Please note I have not mentioned the name of any of the aformentioned murderers. That is how it should be.
In fact, I plan to learn the names of everyone who was fatally hit at Aurora, and I may write a blog about them. They are the ones who deserve to be remembered. Not the smirking psycho who is now enjoying his day in the spotlight. All this coverage is going to bring is more death. Sensational courtroom drama is fascinating to read, but is it worth the terrible price we know some poor group of people will have to pay again in the future? Even now, the cycle of death rages on.
Why are these people heroes to others/why do people continue the thread of violence? Two reasons: 1. Because these people are deeply disturbed individuals to begin with. 2. Because of the attention they get from the media. These people are generally loners. They feel disenfranchised, or abandoned and they think the only way to get attention is by doing something violent and drastic. They love leaving all of these things behind for people to talk about and analyze. They love being a puzzle for others to discuss and solve. They love having their ugly mugs plastered all over the news and internet. When some other depressed, psycho loner sees the legacy built up by somebody else's sins against humanity, they decide they want a piece of the action as well. They want to build their own legacy. The Columbine kids looked to Thurston High and Paduca for their inspiration, and in turn others have looked to them.
It is a viscous cycle that has caught way too many lives in it's teeth. Is this about guns? Hardly. It is about twisted hero worship. And it needs to come to an end now. The media should keep coverage of the Aurora shooter to a minimum. They should cease referring to him altogether. Keep cameras out of his face, because with every click of the camera, you are feeding the beast. Do not give this sicko what he wants. Let him rot in obscurity. If you take away the notoriety, you will take away the motivation to kill from other glory seekers, and many, many lives will be saved. Please note I have not mentioned the name of any of the aformentioned murderers. That is how it should be.
In fact, I plan to learn the names of everyone who was fatally hit at Aurora, and I may write a blog about them. They are the ones who deserve to be remembered. Not the smirking psycho who is now enjoying his day in the spotlight. All this coverage is going to bring is more death. Sensational courtroom drama is fascinating to read, but is it worth the terrible price we know some poor group of people will have to pay again in the future? Even now, the cycle of death rages on.
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Duh Kuh Bee: A Taste Of The 38th Parallel
A border fence runs between the two Koreas at the 38th parallel. This politically inspired structure permanently separated families and caused a lot of pain in different communities in the two respective Koreas. We have seen images of Korean people standing at the 38th parallel tearfully looking through the fence at the other side. Perhaps they are wondering about the fate of a long lost love, or maybe they are just home sick. Sadly, their misery does not end there. In North Korea, the citizens are forced into compulsory worship of a successive bloodline of tyrannical leaders. People are slaughtered at the slightest murmur of dissent the atmosphere of governmental intimidation is so thick, you can barely manage to cut it open with a machete. If you are anything short of absolutely reverent to the "Dear Leader" you are guaranteed to be snuffed out like a flickering candle.
The South does not have it much better, largely thanks to the North. The South Koreans have obnoxious neighbors who play with missiles like they are tinker toys.
Despite all of their hardships, Koreans on both sides of the 38th parallel have one escape from their problems, no matter how temporary it is- their delicious barbecue. (Mostly on the south side, since a lot of them in the North are starving) I would not recommend going to North Korea, because it will likely take nothing less than a former President of the United States to get you out. I would not recommend going to South Korea either, because it is so close to North Korea.
Instead, why not go to Duh Kuh Bee. It is a tiny hole in the wall restaurant that is so unassuming, that you might need a map to find it if you are standing right in front of it. When you walk in for the first time, you will be astonished by the atmosphere. Aside from the color Television set at the end of the restaurant playing American television, you will think you were magically transported to Korea. The place looks just divey enough to have a cute "slumming" quality about it, but it isn't dirty, and it does not look unsanitary. When you walk in, a barrage of random aromas immediately hit you in the face. Your hunger is brought to a peak when teased by the pleasing scents. If you look directly to your left, you will see a display with photos of random customers. That already gives you a sense that they appreciate your business. When you look inside of the building, you might feel astonished by the small size of it. On the first immediate glance, you might feel like you are in a Korean themed semi truck trailer. You can rest assured, this is an illusion. When you walk in a bit further, you will see to your right, a little bar you can sit at, replete with soy sauces and other garnishments, that has a direct, full view into the kitchen.
When you are seated, you are presented with what looks like little square pieces of Honeydew, and a salad that was churned in a garbage disposal. Again, the Koreans triumph with their illusions. The "honeydew" tastes like cole slaw, and the garbage disposal salad is delicious. Unfortunately, I forget what both of these are called. You are brought a jug of water with a close-able lid, and two smallish glasses. The menu tends to have the items pictured. They have the expected items of noodles and rice. If you have a direct view of the kitchen, you can see them make the noodles right there, so you know you are getting quality food. I recommend the shrimp rice, and the medium vegetable noodle. Aso, get a side of meat. They have Korean beef ribs, and other delectables.
The service is usually perfect. The only time when it wasn't, was when a remiss young waiter actually came chasing us down the street asking for a tip. (We usually pay tips, but were running a bit short that day.) But, if you go there more than once, you can count on them recognizing you, and welcoming you back like an old friend. Maybe my friend Ben and I are easy to recognize because we seem to be the only non-Asians who ever show up. Who knows? Either way, when an Asian food restaurant is full of Asians, you can almost bet on it's authenticity.
This place is open quite late usually, so if you feel like a midnight snack, Duh Kuh Bee is your hook up.
Ultimately, I have to recommend this place to anybody who likes to eat wholesome, authentic Asian food. It is worth every penny, and you do get your money's worth. It is like being at the 38th parallel, except without the isolation from family members, or fear of getting killed. It is just a happier place to be than the 38th parallel.
Service A
Food A+
Environment A
Recommendation- Go there. NOW
Duh Kuh Bee: A Taste Of The 38th Parallel
A border fence runs between the two Koreas at the 38th parallel. This politically inspired structure permanently separated families and caused a lot of pain in different communities in the two respective Koreas. We have seen images of Korean people standing at the 38th parallel tearfully looking through the fence at the other side. Perhaps they are wondering about the fate of a long lost love, or maybe they are just home sick. Sadly, their misery does not end there. In North Korea, the citizens are forced into compulsory worship of a successive bloodline of tyrannical leaders. People are slaughtered at the slightest murmur of dissent the atmosphere of governmental intimidation is so thick, you can barely manage to cut it open with a machete. If you are anything short of absolutely reverent to the "Dear Leader" you are guaranteed to be snuffed out like a flickering candle.
The South does not have it much better, largely thanks to the North. The South Koreans have obnoxious neighbors who play with missiles like they are tinker toys.
Despite all of their hardships, Koreans on both sides of the 38th parallel have one escape from their problems, no matter how temporary it is- their delicious barbecue. (Mostly on the south side, since a lot of them in the North are starving) I would not recommend going to North Korea, because it will likely take nothing less than a former President of the United States to get you out. I would not recommend going to South Korea either, because it is so close to North Korea.
Instead, why not go to Duh Kuh Bee. It is a tiny hole in the wall restaurant that is so unassuming, that you might need a map to find it if you are standing right in front of it. When you walk in for the first time, you will be astonished by the atmosphere. Aside from the color Television set at the end of the restaurant playing American television, you will think you were magically transported to Korea. The place looks just divey enough to have a cute "slumming" quality about it, but it isn't dirty, and it does not look unsanitary. When you walk in, a barrage of random aromas immediately hit you in the face. Your hunger is brought to a peak when teased by the pleasing scents. If you look directly to your left, you will see a display with photos of random customers. That already gives you a sense that they appreciate your business. When you look inside of the building, you might feel astonished by the small size of it. On the first immediate glance, you might feel like you are in a Korean themed semi truck trailer. You can rest assured, this is an illusion. When you walk in a bit further, you will see to your right, a little bar you can sit at, replete with soy sauces and other garnishments, that has a direct, full view into the kitchen.
When you are seated, you are presented with what looks like little square pieces of Honeydew, and a salad that was churned in a garbage disposal. Again, the Koreans triumph with their illusions. The "honeydew" tastes like cole slaw, and the garbage disposal salad is delirious. Unfortunately, I forget what both of these are called. You are brought a jug of water with a close-able lid, and two smallish glasses. The menu tends to have the items pictured. They have the expected items of noodles and rice. If you have a direct view of the kitchen, you can see them make the noodles right there, so you know you are getting quality food. I recommend the shrimp rice, and the medium vegetable noodle. Aso, get a side of meat. They have Korean beef ribs, and other delectables.
The service is usually perfect. The only time when it wasn't, was when a remiss young waiter actually came chasing us down the street asking for a tip. (We usually pay tips, but were running a bit short that day.) But, if you go there more than once, you can count on them recognizing you, and welcoming you back like an old friend. Maybe my friend Ben and I are easy to recognize because we seem to be the only non-Asians who ever show up. Who knows? Either way, when an Asian food restaurant is full of Asians, you can almost bet on it's authenticity.
This place is open quite late usually, so if you feel like a midnight snack, Duh Kuh Bee is your hook up.
Ultimately, I have to recommend this place to anybody who likes to eat wholesome, authentic Asian food. It is worth every penny, and you do get your money's worth. It is like being at the 38th parallel, except without the isolation from family members, or fear of getting killed. It is just a happier place to be than the 38th parallel.
Service A
Food A+
Environment A
Recommendation- Go there. NOW
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